If I call you up at 2 a.m. and I'm feeling fucked and lonely again
I know you wouldn't be cruel you'd just sit there and listen
If I cried said I'm terrified
That I'm getting close to the day I'd die
You'd just shake and you'd tell me to go home
And it's true that I'm probably not worth the battery life
Why do you still stick around or let me stay the night?
I couldn't figure it out if you wrote it all down
Please write down
How do you love me right now?
How do you love me right now?
I make all the jokes
And run from the cracks that are visible only to you react
With a long breath and worried eyes that justify
When I haven't heard a thing you've said
'Cause I've been talking about the sounds in my head
I never asked once about you or how you've been
And it's no surprise that my friends are harder and harder to come by
That look in your eyes
Shows I've made it about it me like I do every time
I need to figure it out write it all down so I don't forget how
How do you love me right now?
How do you love me right now?
I wouldn't love me right now
How do you love me right now?
Narcissistic paranoia
That just means that I annoy ya
And the contacts on my phone are really more than I know
And the ones I want to talk to are usually busy and at home
Suicidal kamikaze becomes less charming as I'm talking
I'm trying to see why you pick up when it's me
How do you, how do you, how do you
How do you love me right now?
How do you love me right now?
How do you love me?
Maybe I should just stay inside
Stop calling my friends about how hard I try
Maybe that's another reason why
I don't understand how you let me inside
How, how do you love me?
How do you love me?
I want to love me
Do you love me right?
If I call you up at 2 a.m. when I'm feeling fucked and lonely again
I know you wouldn't be cruel you'd just sit there and listen
